5:45pm here and just had myself a great binge.

Ok, no, it wasn't good. It was actually incredibaly disgusitng. My roommie is gone, which means it's the perfect time to eat like a pig. I guess I could have done worse, but I can't let myself do this! I'm so huge, you guys. Like.....You have no clue. I lost about 15-20 pounds within the last year which I guess is better than nothing, but there is no excuse for me being at the weight that I am. I don't feel comfortable telling you all what my weight is now, but I'll give you a guess: Somewehere over 200 pounds. EWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!

I have attempted way too many diets to keep track. I've tried everything. Eating just meat and eggs, not eating at all, doing juice fast, becoming a vegetarian, etc. I guess those types of diets can work for people, my problem? I HAVE NO FUCKING WILL POWER!
Well, for most things. Suprisingly, I have been a vegetarian almost a year. (October 23rd to be exact~)
Has that helped me any? No. I've substituted pure junk for meat. Oh well. At least I'm not killing innocent animals.

Anyways, so there is a point to this blog. It's Octover 4th, and I am going to a HUGE halloween party on the 29th. My costume is most-likely going to a girly football player. Persoanlly, I think it's a hot costume....on a skinny girl. Now i'm not saying that I'm going to lose 100 pounds in 3 weeks, but I would like to tone up. I know I can tone up in that amount of time....I just gotta get the ball rowling, and somehow figure out my diet plan. It's real hard to start starving. I could do that, but I'm a full-time college student and have a part-time job. (Ahh which reminds me, I need to get off and take my Anat. Phys. Exam!!)

I guess I could do something like only 3oo calories, and just drink a lot of liquids through out the day. Who knows! I'll have to expand more on things later! Anyways, I doubt anyone will ever read this, but that's ok. I'ts like my little diary!

xoxo <3

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